The Passion and The Plan

I have a master's degree, and I am a nanny. Some mornings I work out, and some mornings I hit the snooze button five times. I love writing and language, and yet, I cannot spell. I love the first Nelly album, and I think that ballet is the most beautiful form of art on earth. I have fourteen bottles of perfume, scented lotion, and bubble bath that reminds you of Pecan Pie, and I have a nose that does not take in scent.

There is something inside all of us that makes us who we are. Many times, women tend to focus on our looks. We are red headed or big booty-ed or long toed. Men tend to look at their accomplishments. They are the lead singer, the football star, or the witty one. However, I have lately been pondering what makes me who I am. I believe that in actuality, we are a sum of our passions.

You don't hear me talk about this often because it is the most intimate part of my life, but I have a passionate, unique, and turbulent relationship with God. I have been sought after, and I fight him tooth and nail for my own life. But, oh, how good he is when I finally collapse from exhaustion. He doesn't say, "See, I told you so." No, instead, he sits me down, hands me a cup of coffee, and says, "Rest." And then the caffine sets in, and I start the struggle all over again. But, I sure do like that guy.

Although this passion defines every part of the rest of me, it is not all of me. I have been searching for the "thing" that I can have passion about. There are many things I love, but none of them make me jump out of bed in the morning and feel like I am doing the one thing on earth that only I can do. I believe we all have the opportunity to fill that posistion, and sometimes we take the long way around to get to it.

I believe I have found that passion. I know that my love of the arts and my love for students would lead me somewhere, and I always thought it would lead to the local church. However, as God has shown me, it is not always that easy, and I am now embarking on the journey of education. I have never felt so in tune with what I am supposed to be doing. I always knew this was where I was supposed to be, but I fought it. Why? I am not sure, but I am excited that I will get to do this.

So, that is one of my passions - teaching. That is also the plan - teaching. I am also passionate about Starbucks.... I wonder where that falls into place?